Holly Renae Proffitt

"SITTING SILENTLY BESIDE A FRIEND WHO IS HURTING MAY BE THE BEST GIFT WE CAN GIVE"

AUTHOR UNKNOWN

Remembering all our special angels.

My Dearest Holly Renae,

I cannot believe it has been fourteen years since that awful day, the day I first lost my Holly.  I had so many hopes and dreams for you and you had so many for yourself.  You had so much potential and so much to offer the world.  I just don't understand why you had to leave us.  I guess your time here was done and you had learned all the lessons you came to learn.  I just miss you so and want you here with your family.  I so wanted to see you graduate college, get married and give me grandchildren.  Your first little niece and namesake is a lot like you.  I will never forget seeing her eat her first ice cream cone from the bottom up- just like you did when you were little.  I wish you were here to see her and your nephew, Carson, grow up.  I make sure they know all about you and promise to always keep you a part of our lives. 

 I went by the wreck site this morning and left you your favorite, yellow roses.  Thanks for the signs I found there this morning.  When I see these things that only mean something to me or you I know you are speaking to me.  I just want so much to see that beautiful face and smile again.  I learned so much from your life and death.  I learned what is really is to be determined and to perservere.  I learned what true strength, determination, and unselfish love are.  I learned that there are people on this earth that are truly too good to be here, that touch lives in many special ways and serve as inspirations to others.  I learned what a true hero is-You.

I try to imagine the things you see and do each day.  I know you were so happy to see Mamaw Margaret in January.  She loved and missed her baby doll so much.  I bet that was a wonderful reunion.

Please know that I carry you with me each and every day and hold precious the memories I have of you, all the basketball games, the fun times with your sister and brothers, and your wonderful sense of humor.  You were such a blessing to me and I am so very sorry for any time I took for granted.  I learned from your accident and death to never take anyone, anything, ocassions, or time for granted.  We never know which time will be the last.  I never dreamed I would be getting that phone call at work after you left for school, this day fourteen years ago.

I will love you forever and always.

Until I see that beautiful smile again and look into those big brown eyes,

Forever,

Mom